Can't I just have one NORMAL DAY?

 I can't believe that is the title of my post cause I hate that word NORMAL ( I think it is all relative).  But, anyway...Today I woke up and was feeling really really dizzy and confused.  Well, after 24 years of dealing with different types of feelings in the morning, I could chalk it up to either being sleep deprived, or more likely that my blood sugars were too low.  So, I tested my blood (gotta love technology allowing me to do it in 5 seconds...when I first got diabetes it was three minutes and a whole, swipe blood, put in and swipe again kind of thing--Another day story), and did find out, in fact, that I was 45. 

 --Let me just pause for a second to clear up the COMMON MISCONCEPTION that diabetics cannot get low blood sugars or ever eat any sugar at all!  For some reason this is one of my diabetic pet peeves (I have quite a few of those that will unravel throughout different posts, among them are people assuming I have type 2 diabetes, and also people thinking I don't take care of myself when they HAVE NO CLUE).  People with diabetes can in fact, and often have low blood sugars (I usually just say I am having a "reaction" and people know what I mean) .  And it isn't as simple as saying they don't have control of their diabetes (another pet peeve of mine--whenever your blood glucose isn't in the PERFECT range, people call you out of control or say you can't handle it---ANY diabetic will testify that sometimes the boxes we are suppose to be put in are hilarious--you will jump in and out of them on occasion and that doesn't mean anything is wrong with you).  When a diabetic does get low, they must eat something to rectify that and help them get back to the "normal" range--and yes, sometimes that MIGHT be some sugar if that is what is available--so GET OVER IT if you see a diabetic eating sugar.  YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON!

 --Back to my morning--

 Enough experience of this has shown me that morning lows are the HARDEST for me the weirdest.  There is no medical description of why that might be, just my own thoughts (and no one knows your body better than yourself). 

 I think they are hard cause I am still sleepy.  Sometimes I have been low in the morning just coming out of a dream,and, like anyone, your brain is slow to determine it is awake sometimes...or even to realize you aren't in a dream.  These times my dreams have been so real it has been scary.  When this has happened, I truly have a hard time distinguishing what is real and what isn't (in the past I dreamt I had eight arms, and woke up low and really FELT my eight arms, no one could tell me they weren't there).

 Thankfully, in those really scary moment, I have had people around to help me.  Today was not one of those days in which someone else needed to help me. 

 I simply ran downstairs and found a granola bar to eat quickly (another thing that is hard about morning lows, as many people who have lived with me can attest is since you aren't thinking clearly, you just grab whatever you see--I have had friends come down in the morning and see every cupboard open and say "You got low this morning didn't you?"), and shove it in my mouth.

 All I want to do is go back to sleep and get even a few more minutes...But, I not only have to wait until my counts are normal, but once again---I hear the familiar "Mommy, Mommy."  Oh well, there is nothing more beautiful than that! One of these days I will write something other than what is happening in my mornings--I promise.

 Just today, with your morning starting wrong, already being tired, and waking up early ( I am one of the few blessed people who can wake up from being low---others don't tend to be as lucky as me--not sure why I can though, probably cause I really never sleep in the night), but to add I get wiped out from being low (and diabetes in general can just cause fatigue), and can be wiped out the rest of the day...I thought writing about it would help my day get better and start my day off better...So on to my day...